feelings like this .

everytime i walk out from that place, i feel pain and sadness
the only thing that would make me happy from now onwards is to walk out from that cold place with her hands in mine.
everytime i walk into the lift by myself, my heart sinks and tears flood my small eyes.
everytime i walk into that place, i try to convince myself DO NOT FROWN.
because if she knows that im sad and torn apart, she'll cry and think that it's her fault.
everytime i walk out from that place, almst everytime, 3 times in a row. it rained.
everytime i drive alone, i increase the volume of my radio, just to convince myself : cry as loud as you can , nobody knows.
everytime i drive alone, those feelings rush up my head, i cant control myself from crying, and once i saw an uncle by the road, staring at me like im a weirdo .

dont ask me why i drive over to penang and go out with my friends and drive around buying stuff for my project.
i do that because im like my mum, when she's not well, she still wants to finish her work because that's her responsibility, im like her, responsible. so please.... dont question me, because that'll hurt me, that'll make me feel bad. im here in his place because i want a shoulder to cry on, just like what every girl needs when she's not okay. please dont question me.

im sad , im feel pain inside me.
Ill recover when she rocovers.....